Aai

I will not say that she has her arms spread around us to keep us safe,
Because they are the strong pillars that keep our roof safe.
I will not say that she walks with us in each part of life,
Because she watches us as we make our own choices.
She knows what it is to be independent
And to be happy through your own efforts.
I will not say that she told us stories of bravery and honesty while going to bed,
Because hers was enough to make us understand those things.
I will not say that she is right all the time,
But she taught me that having your own opinions makes you strong, even if others may not agree.
I will not say that she is perfect,
But she showed me that imperfection is beautiful sometimes.
I will not say that i am like her,
But i always try to find ways in which i can be.
I will not say that she is an oldie,
Because she listens to Ed Sheeran with me and sings along!
I will not say that she has the perfect sense of direction,
But she found the perfect one to reach her destination.
Her voice fills the room with sweetness
But at the same time tells me that to be able to stand on your own, you need to be bitter sometimes.
She also taught me to fight for what is right and that truth has only one face.
She caresses me with her hands and
Shoves off all the worries off my forehead.

I love you, she says everyday before i sleep,
And then i sing and dance with her in my dreams.

Audacity

I am proud to live in this generation.
This generation with young
poets, artists,thinkers and especially dreamers,
who express themselves boldly and proudly.
I am proud to live in this generation.
Where we are driven by phones.
The internet is our house and we are
wealthy enough to call it ours.
People say we live in a concrete jungle-
So be it.
I say it loud and I say it clearly.
I live in this generation .
Social media is our playground
where each day some kids get into a fight and some solve it.

Yes our life is drowned in technology.
Yes our eyes are always shining because of the screen light.
But don;t you see how lit our faces become because of the light?
Yes we hate it when ANYONE disrespects our tech.
The street lights are our stars
The LED light is our sun.
We are fascinated by Vines and Snapchat stories.
New posts are our energy drinks and
we become weak if we don't see new ones.

You see, we are addicted to being the boss of our playground.
You may not like this generation, but we do.
We are part of this generation who consider phones our chuddy-buddies.
And trust me these buddies are true friends!

So the next time you wanna say that
"This generation is nothing but Facebook and Instagram and Snapchat ",

Please go ahead and deactivate all your accounts.

Anti- Gravity

I'm confined to this dark blue curtain,
Which shows me new lights everyday
They shine so beautifully, but I know I can't touch them.
They may bruise these hands which often ask for anything that brings happiness.

This metal beast slowly shows signs of weakness.
It has given me so much that I forget about the distance I keep from home now.
It has given me life and the will to survive this confinement.
I float in this beast, forgetting what my body looks like.
How my skin used to define my body and how I used to love it.
And how it feels hollow now.

Picture credits- Google

Age and time have held hands and fled far away from me.
They never looked back to come sit with me and talk to me.
Maybe they went home to meet you.

I wonder what home looks like now.
I wonder if that  cobbled street is still there
If my room still holds my fragrance
If the city has slept yet
If you look up at the sky and wonder where I might be.

I have got used to this confinement.
The beast often talks to me and asks how I'm doing.
I always have the same answer-"never been better!"

I know I wont see home again
So make sure to welcome my soul with a proud smile when it comes to you.
I know I wont see home again
Because the beast told me that it is time.
I know I wont see home again
But make sure it stays the way I left it.
I know I wont see home again
But make sure to look up at the sky wonder where I might be.

Guilty Ghost

Guilty Ghost

Do you still feel the thrill on quiet nights?

Do you still feel like stalking those empty passages?

Do you still want to be the ghost that you once were?

Because I know I don't.

The thrills that we used to get 

are now waves of guilt,

crashing against me.

The shrill screams of that little girl still echo in my head. 

Her eyes were like stars, burning with purity. 

Do you remember how her skin slowly turned white?

Do you remember how we sucked the life out of her,

extinguishing that purity?

Because I know I do.

I can still feel the amount of fear that penetrated the house that night;

and how I slowly turned that fear into my own guilt.

Those innocent faces flash in my head like blinding lights, 

being forced on my eyes, burning them.

You know, when it all ended, 

it was quiet again.

Like nothing ever happened. 

Like those shrill screams were just music.

Like we were just normal beings,

not guilty of that night.

But here we are.

Eagerly waiting on the porch

on a quiet evening;

For more innocents to feed on

and finally take the life out of this house;

Which has stood so strong, 

being fed by the fear. 

Look, its asking for more.   

The Beast

Painting by me. 22 Oct 2016

I used to think that he was always asleep, not caring what was going on outside.
I used to listen to him snore loudly as I made my peace with the world.
But lately I have come to realize that his sleep is coming to an end.
That he is going to wake up, and when he does,
I know it will be bad.
It will be bad;
since all this while the angel within was working and working.
And now she is tired and old.
Now she has given up.

Then one day he did wake up.
He woke up, and he second he did, I felt a pang in my chest.
He wanted to get out.
He started to slowly destroy my insides.
He shook the floor on which my heart stood strong and shattered it.
He blew up what was left of the angel.
Then he came for me.
I had made a promise to myself not to let him get me.
Not to let him manipulate me and shape me as
But he finally succeeded.
He now holds me tightly in his huge fists.
He squished me so hard that I have spit out all my organs.
Which makes me  wonder how I let him find warmth on that same floor on which my heart stood.
How I have myself let him in.
He holds me in front of his face and there is a look of satisfaction on his face
and a sly smile.
That smile....it feels familiar.
Then it struck me. It was one that I once had on my face when I let him wake up.
When I let him overpower me completely.

He has now converted me  into another being.
Although, it feels good. Deadly.
And now there is a sly smile on my face.
A look of satisfaction.

The Gramophone

He has been sitting on that old teakwood table even before i was born.
He has an intricately carved beautiful golden mouth that opens wide.
Yet he hasn't grown old and never will.
The countless songs played on him are a proof of my family's legacy and what we stand for.
The music, the records, the voices. All these make me feel just as happy as I had felt the first time I heard them.
He is indeed really old now but hasn't broken apart yet and never will.
His voice has this kind of a base that cannot be created today.
The symphonies that come out of his huge golden mouth fill the whole house with notes of the memories that are attached to each of those songs.
Every person in the house- be it my little brother or my great grandmother- has some or the other memory attached to the old guy.
He has never let go of these memories and never will.
That little needle on him that has run endless races on the record disk, is still as sharp as it was before.
The record disks spin on it just as fast as they used to before.
But the old guy hasn't been used in a long time now.
The needle misses his races with himself, each time to go a little further than the last time.
The old guy's voice has now got a kind of harshness that cannot be created today.
The intricate golden design is now showing signs of fading away.
The old guy wants to scream and tell the whole world that his voice is still the same.
All those songs and memories are still in him and he wants to relive them.
He wants us to listen to all those symphonies and dance again, filling the house with the legacy that my family stands for.
He wants to just keep playing now.
Just play and play and play until his voice starts breaking down and so does he.
But he had never given up earlier and he never will.

The Beach

The Beach

I walked just on the edge of the shore
Where the waves came and receeded back into the mighty sea.
The sun was setting now
And  the sky was now a melange of purple and orange
Odd, the combination of these colours.
It was like the sunrays were trying to
Find their way through, just before going away
One last time, they wanted to open up in the sky
But the clouds wouldn't let them.
The purple now overpowered the orange
Telling it that its time was over.
Each wave  came with a different force, covering my feet.
Each wave left its own mark in the sand.
Each wave left a unique stone or shell.
It was in all peaceful.
And then i woke up.

Woke up to the raging war outside.
To the gunshots and bombings.
To the cries of helpless women and faithful soldiers.
Because it was he-who ruled the world-
Now ruled our little town.
They came in last night like a swamp of bees and invaded us , made us their slaves.
All that we once called ours did not belong to us anymore.
And the beach..
It is now a wasteland
Where bodies now came and receeded into the mighty sea.
Where each wave now came in search of deadly things to take back.
The blood had made the beach red.
And the sky. The sky was now a melange of hatred and savagery.
The beach was now a slaughterhouse.
The beach was not mine anymore.