Tuesday 20 December 2016 1 comments

Guilty Ghost


Guilty Ghost

Do you still feel the thrill on quiet nights?
Do you still feel like stalking those empty passages?
Do you still want to be the ghost that you once were?
Because I know I don't.
The thrills that we used to get 
are now waves of guilt,
crashing against me.
The shrill screams of that little girl still echo in my head. 
Her eyes were like stars, burning with purity. 
Do you remember how her skin slowly turned white?
Do you remember how we sucked the life out of her,
extinguishing that purity?
Because I know I do.
I can still feel the amount of fear that penetrated the house that night;
and how I slowly turned that fear into my own guilt.
Those innocent faces flash in my head like blinding lights, 
being forced on my eyes, burning them.
You know, when it all ended, 
it was quiet again.
Like nothing ever happened. 
Like those shrill screams were just music.
Like we were just normal beings,
not guilty of that night.

But here we are.
Eagerly waiting on the porch
on a quiet evening;
For more innocents to feed on
and finally take the life out of this house;
Which has stood so strong, 
being fed by the fear. 
Look, its asking for more.   



Friday 9 December 2016 0 comments

The Beast

Painting by me. 22 Oct 2016
I used to think that he was always asleep, not caring what was going on outside.
I used to listen to him snore loudly as I made my peace with the world.
But lately I have come to realize that his sleep is coming to an end.
That he is going to wake up, and when he does,
I know it will be bad.
It will be bad;
since all this while the angel within was working and working.
And now she is tired and old.
Now she has given up.

Then one day he did wake up.
He woke up, and he second he did, I felt a pang in my chest.
He wanted to get out.
He started to slowly destroy my insides.
He shook the floor on which my heart stood strong and shattered it.
He blew up what was left of the angel.
Then he came for me.
I had made a promise to myself not to let him get me.
Not to let him manipulate me and shape me as
But he finally succeeded.
He now holds me tightly in his huge fists.
He squished me so hard that I have spit out all my organs.
Which makes me  wonder how I let him find warmth on that same floor on which my heart stood.
How I have myself let him in.
He holds me in front of his face and there is a look of satisfaction on his face
and a sly smile.
That smile....it feels familiar.
Then it struck me. It was one that I once had on my face when I let him wake up.
When I let him overpower me completely.

He has now converted me  into another being.
Although, it feels good. Deadly.
And now there is a sly smile on my face.
A look of satisfaction.
 
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